Jazzmin

So, im back again.. Long time no see!

So, alot happend, i changed my job (my first day today) tok a huge leap of faith, and it kinda back fierd. Is closer to my sister then ever, and still missing him as always. So some things have changed and some things have not, and in the end im still the wierd, quiet girl like ive always been.

Anyway, just wanted to let you know that im back, and i'll blog more later, cause now im really in a hurry to make the bus!



So, i've actully spent a hole day just listening to music!

And to tell you the truth, it was actully really nice! It's wierd how music can make you feel, like happy,sad mad and so on. And a word in a song can bring back memories and you can just dream yourself away to diffrent places in your past. I love doing that, feks different artist can also make you remember things. I had a great friend for many years, he was my best friend to be honest. I grew up with him and we were always together! I miss that time, and sometimes... When i want to go back to that i turn on a song with Eminem. Yeah, that was our thing, just being silly and kids really. He left me a message the other day, got really suprized! I havent had contact with him for so many years.. When i saw his name it was like a punsh in my stomach, i was scared to even read what he wrote me. But yeah, in the end i just had to read it. And what he wrote ment so much to me, and it was almost like i felt abit safe, just for a moment. I mean he was not with me or anything but, all the way back since i could remember have he always been the one that where there for me. I remember always feeling safe with him. But that only made me miss him, alot actully..

I remember one time, i was bullied in school and i came home and didnt want to talk to anyone. And i had this place in the forest i used to go to, he came down there and stayed outside with me all day and tried to cheer me up. Told me that he would always be there for me. And that was one of the 100 times he was there for me. But then i moved away, and we lost abit of contact. But i remember when i came out from the hospital those years ago i called him up, after not talking to eachother for like 3 years or something. And he could hear that i was upset, and came a long way to see me. I think it was about 3h drive one way.

He have been such a big part of my life, and i love him. And i always will. He is and always will be my best friend.

Sometimes i wish i could freeze the good moment and skip the bad..

Today im going to listen to loud music, go for a run and try to clear my thoughts.

Before i was going to work this morning i was going to the doctor to check out a lump i have on my wrist. Ive had a operation on my wrist a couple of years ago for the same lump but now its back and huge! And since im a hairstylist im cutting and blowdrying hair all day and it hurts everytime i move my wrist. So long story short, the Doc told me that i was NOT to work out today and the rest of the week. I was not happy at all since i actully like working, then i can think about something else and the times go by faster. But then! She told me that i can only work 50% the hole next week!! And if im not better then im going to be working 50% or non untill i get the operation since i can ruin my wrist forever if im not carefull. And then im not going to work with what i love at all.. So, now im stuck at home and nothing to do.. And i was really scared of what my boss was going to say, but luckly a woman at work said she could give it to him for me, thank god.

Anyways, met my friend at the mall today.. Was so nice to see her and her little family, it was abit awkward since i havent seen them for so long, and i was scared really.. Sounds wierd? Yeah i know scared to talk to someone i care about, im going to have dinner with them next week, so i feel like i need to put on my happy smiley face again. Or well they are so nice so they kinda make me forget and just laugh for abit. Ive missed them.



So alot of things have been going on, two really nice people are gone from my work now, that kinda sucks...Im in constant battle with my head and heart. Im scared to get dragged into court, im scared that im loseing my best friend and im scared of going downhill.

All my life have been a uphill/downhill road, if you know what i mean?

I was thinking yesterday, that i should try boxing, maybe it will help me to punsh the face i really want to punsh. The thing that happend to me a couple of years ago is still going on and its hard, cause i feel like i can never run away from it. When i dont think about it,something happens and i get dragged back to the black hole. Its in my head all the time, and it scares me, cause to be honest i dont like dark skinned guys anymore. And i know thats AWFUL to say, and im the person that hates racism, but i cant help it. When i see someone that have abit dark skin, i just want to run away. I dont want to be near them or anything. And this is something that im struggeling with because im a hairdresser. And i pray everyday that i dont get anyone like that. Dont get me wrong, but its more that im afraid of them. There is a reason i always have radio,tv and computer on when i go to sleep. And everytime i have to go to the toilet in the night i have to turn on every light thats in the appartment and check the door that its locked. And i have 2 phones one in my bdroom and one with me at all times, i go around with constant fear. I know this might seem extreme but its the truth, and im kinda ashamed by it, but i figured that if im open about it then people might understand more? Its wierd that one man's actions can change your opinion about a hole grp of people.

But anyways, now you know im back, dont start to ask me to blog more often, cause this is really not for you people anymore. This time its just more to myself. I'll blog whenever i like and if it takes 3 months to next update then thats the way its just going to be.

I know i said that i would start over in this blog with just wrighting about products and such, but i figured that when i couldent wright what was going on in my mind, anymore i found myself blogging less, and in the end not at all. So, what im going to do is start blogging again but this time for what i want myself. Yes im going to update in products that i like and give you guys tips BUT im also going to blog about whats going on in my head. Because thats why i started this blog.



Nå som det går sakte men sikkert mot sommeren vurderer jeg og farge det litt lysere.. Nå har jeg ganske rødt hår med noen lyse striper. Det er alltid bra og være litt lysere mot sommeren og mørkere mot vinteren.Men uansett må jeg nok gå for litt lysere etterhvert fordi, at solen tærer så mye på mørkt hår og gjør det blasst og lysere.

Jeg har alltid vært fan av salg og billig varer. Men igjen hvem er ikke det? Men så ser jeg alle disse kjente bloggerene anbefaler alle disse kjente merkene som koster masse masse penger å da klarer jeg bare ikke annet en og tenke herregud...Ting trenger ikke alltid og være super dyrt for å være bra! Feks. I dag slo jeg til og kjøpte meg body butter fra Boots apoteket som kostet 99kr! Jeg kjøpte den med Coconut & Hibiscus! Den er fet og god så man føler at den trekker godt inn i huden. Også lukter den jo fantastisk godt også!

Så nå sitter jeg med redken sin Overnight treatment hår kur (som jeg da skal sove med) også har jeg smurt inn huden min med den gode body butteren jeg kjøpte i dag!

Sigma Brushes er fantastiske!

Har du ikke prøvd dem? Da vill jeg ambefale deg og gjøre det!

De er lette og jobbe med, ikke dyr i pris i forhold til andre brushes og kvaliteten er super. Jeg har brukt mine en god stund og har ikke opplevd at dem mister mye hår. Dem gjør en god jobb med og fordele øyen skyggen godt og jevnt over øyet.

Jeg har settet  " Premium Professional Kit with Brush Roll - Black" og angrer ikke ett sekund på at jeg valgte den, hadde engentlig tenkt til og skaffe meg en med mindre brushes men så tenkte jeg at det var bedre og slå til med en gang nettopp fordi man kan bare bli bedre og bedre til og legge sminke. Så hvorfor ikke slå på stortromme med en gang?

Negledesign trenger ikke og bety den samme gamle hel fargen på neglen eller fransk manikyr!

Men hva med og sette seg ned og bruke litt tid på og gjøre neglene selv designet og nytt? Dette er jo kjempe kult selv om det er ganske tidskrevende. En neglelakk som jeg veit er gode til og bruke er OPI, Depend og Gallery. De sitter godt og er ikke de to siste er heller ikke så værst i prisen!